May 6 2023 - 02

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I kind of feel like giving up. I don't like my mind, anymore. I don't like how my brain can't think right anymore. I don't like how I always feel like an idiot. I don't like how I'm just not the same anymore.

I looked at suicide methods, and looking at them and their descriptions made me feel discouraged from the idea of committing suicide. That's a good thing, I guess.

I'll try writing. Maybe it will make me feel like someone else, someone I'd rather be.