August 5 2023


Let me get this out of the way first:

Is it just me, or do the memes of today just… suck? Twinks, femboys (crazy examples, yeah), and whatever else, it’s all annoying. Just give me any trending meme from today and it’ll probably suck. Those cosplay girls on Twitter with their OnlyFans are also pretty annoying…

I saw some cosplay girl on Twitter but she seemed to just be a cosplayer; no onlyfans or sexualization, just cosplay. I guess that was a breath of fresh air, may have dismantled my opinion a bit. God, that sounded stupid of me; no sexy girl, fresh air… oh well, I guess.

Now, you’re probably thinking “let those cosplay girls do what they want, even if it’s sexy cosplay!” Well, yeah, they can do it, I can’t stop them. I’m just saying that I don’t like it, that’s all.

But hey, I’m just some dude working at a restaurant, so my opinion might not matter as much. I’m in college, though, but still.

I shouldn’t focus so much on these memes and girls, it’s a waste of time.



Now that that’s all out of the way…

I’m pretty sure I felt a pretty strong feeling when I thought about the writing community I’m in while listening to this little ambient track I made. I think I can only describe it as nostalgic. (I felt like these words of mine were invalidated by the opinions I expressed above).

Just think of an old writing community website on the internet from long ago, one that you stumbled upon. And everyone there is inactive, and has been for many years. The website is full of their articles and work, which haven’t been tended to since they went inactive.

And you look at their profiles to learn the little amount of information they gave of themselves, and you wonder where they are now.

Imagine way in the future, they all die and all that’s apparently left of them is the work they published to the website. For a moment, I thought, “what does it matter” when I thought about my articles and work. It seemed pointless for a moment, and I think that made me feel a little bit sad.

Sometimes, I notice my surroundings at home, and it makes me wonder where the hell I am in life. Like, what am I doing here? What the hell am I doing? Have I made any progress? I mean, yeah, I finally got a job for the first time about two months ago. But as a person? I still rant about egirls and shit like that. I actually toned it down a lot before that, but now it’s like I went backwards or something.

Man, this song makes me want to be back at that anime convention I went to. It was really fun, especially since I went as Sogiita Gunha. I had a pretty powerful feeling once there, something like feeling I was in a memory. The whole experience, the whole place, all the people cosplaying and stuff made for a nostalgic feeling. The weather was so nice, too. I probably felt really at peace.

Again, I feel like these words mean nothing since I ranted about cosplay girls (when I say that, I don’t simply mean women cosplaying, lol). Meh, maybe I should just forget them and not mention them.

Ha, I think I’d like to keep my dumb opinions in the afterlife (if there is one), but maybe I won’t have a choice. I guess there won’t be any dislike or negativity in heaven. Am I really that negative? I imagine that would drive everyone away from me. Well, maybe not… I like to think I’m not so bad to people in real life, I hope. I mean, I’m not mean, I hope…

The sun has risen a good amount. I’d prefer for it to still be dark outside. It’d be nicer that way, for now.

At least I wrote more about other things than what I expressed my dislike for at the very top of this entry.

See ya later… maybe those can be my last words some day. All I want is for things to go well in my life. Why not have your life go well, too? Immediately, I felt like me wishing for another person’s life to go well was a fake wish, a fake thought. Maybe I shouldn’t worry so much.

It’s alright, forget it. Just forget everything else and just write however you want.

See ya later…