April 5 2023


I think I saw a meteor in the sky last night while driving. I was on a highway at about 8:30 PM driving pretty fast, and all of a sudden I saw a bright-orange dot appear in the sky, which then became a long streak. Eventually, the "end" of the streak turned green-ish before vanishing, presumably burning out. I feel hesitant to say it was a meteor, because I really don't know for sure, but I think it could be safe to say it was a meteor, because what else?

So far there haven't been any online reports of it, I guess I'll have to wait for a bit. I was not the only one who saw it, so something must come out soon.



Anyways, yesterday I went to see a movie with my older brother and sister at the theater. It was alright, but I remember feeling dumb at times during the movie... like always. I wasn't really able to keep up with what was happening.

Movie ends, and my siblings and I walk out. My older brother starts talking about how it seems like things in movies have been "blackwashed." I decided to say "ashed" as a joke and antonym of "whitewashed." They both didn't get it, and I said "nevermind." My brother insisted on me explaining it, but I kept saying it's fine. Out of nowhere, he says "no it's not fucking fine" and insists on me telling.

That's just how my brother is. I feel like he swears when it isn't necessary, and I feel like his reaction was also not necessary. Any other person would've just been like "alright, whatever." I don't know how to describe my brother (and of course, being unable to describe my brother makes me feel dumb. Everything makes me feel dumb).

He listens to people like Andrew Tate and is really big on "being a man", and he wants me to "be a man" too. Yesterday he really started to annoy me with his behavior. For a moment, it felt like he was trying to mold me into something, whatever that is. I wasn't too sure of this feeling though, so I don't want to confidently say that it does feel like he is trying to mold me into something.



During the movie, I at one point felt "aware" of my vision. It was kind of like an out-of-body experience, but not exactly. It was kind of close to that? It was like I was kind of "outside" of my vision. It was probably caused by me thinking about how I am me, how I have this vision, not someone else's, and just how I have this body and what not.