Monday December 11 2023 - 02

"A Quick Observation"

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I noticed that my entries tend to always mention e-girls and e-boys, and I'm always complaining about them. I'm either complaining about that, or "aesthetics." I don't know what to say about that. I should probably just let it all go already, but it feels like I don't want to. I know that I should just let it all go, especially since I'm nineteen, like, dude, I'm nineteen and I'm always complaining about this stuff.

But when I say "I know that I should just let it all go," it doesn't feel like I truly believe that. It feels like that thought was planted in my head, like it wasn't really me who came up with that thought. It's like I only think that because it's what's expected from people. It's what's expected from a better person. It doesn't feel like a real, genuine thought.

I think my entries tend to be about the same thing. I tend to complain about my mental habits a lot.

This was not a "quick observation." But, it was a quick entry. I will stop here.